Open For Love

I’ve been trying online dating for the past 2.5 years—and honestly, it hasn’t been the most successful endeavor. I’ve met some truly wonderful men, but none who come close to what I’m looking for.

I guess you could say I’m picky when it comes to love. I’ve learned how to read compatibility quickly, how to stop fearing that I’ll hurt someone’s feelings by being honest, and how to show up with an open heart—without letting disappointment harden it when things don’t work out. I’ve learned to trust my intuition. And I’ve become even clearer about what I truly want in a partner. So, in that sense, this little experiment has been a good teacher.

The other day I texted my best friend Cara and said:

“I’ve decided I don’t want to settle for anything but soulmate love. I’ve been settling, and none of these men have come close to the love and connection I know is possible. I’m tired of pretending that it didn’t happen or that it can’t happen. It’s real. It’s possible. And it’s what I want.”

And when I say soulmate, I mean it in the truest, most spiritual—and grounded—sense of the word. Someone with whom I feel complete emotional, physical, spiritual, and mental harmony. The purest, most magical kind of love. The kind of love that once kept me alive through the hardest years. The love I still feel for the man who visits my dreams.

Sometimes I just need to write and share a declaration like this—to keep me close to my truth and to hold myself accountable to it.

Thanks for reading. 🤍